08/05/2025
there is a different state of mind and i do not know how to shake it off nothing matters but the moment, hands in action, mind a method tighter and tighter until it all goes This is a life before eternity writhing in jealousy, scorn, and cranberry vodka stains It was an old car with a life run short short
07/28/2025
hello world, is this thing on? i'll let you in on a secret. i have a voice, did you know that, someone? and even though it may never be heard i would like to speak as if speaking mattered as if life mattered i still work at the museum, did you know that, someone? it's been years. my friends are gone now no one there cares about the artifacts, the icons, stories as if the lives of those who fought do not matter as if the lives of those who lived do not matter i sat on a box and flipped through the books that took a lifetime to fill that took a lifetime and still couldn't say all the things they wanted to say. do all the things they wanted to do. no one will know their stories unless i tell them and someone listens and someone cares someone ... tomorrow, i will go to work, and do my best, and come home again. and then i will go to work, do my best, and come home again. sometimes i think it makes a difference. but just breathing isn't life just breathing is torture but i lay and breathe, breathe, too just breathing is not enough. just living is not enough just when will my time start moving again